encouragment.

So many emotions. So many thoughts.

I wish my Christian friends were more encouraging. I try and be a good encourager. "Treat others the way you want to be treated" kinda thing. I feel like I'm running as hard as I can after the Lord right now. In the midst of this world pulling at me, I am still moving forward. I haven't given in or pushed Him away even though lies want to convince me that I have every right too. Even though my past and present creep into my mind every day, I know I have to let God reign!

...And in the midst of pursuing the Lord I feel pulled down by the church. Isn't the Bride suppose to work together? Encourage one another?

I don't expect approval or applause.
I just wish others would be here for me as I battle in what feels like
the fight of my life.
I don't need to hear what I'm doing wrong.
I just really need someone here.
We need people, right?




God show me what You are trying to teach me right now.
Because I feel so let down.
And really really alone.
amen.